lets do this shit!
Who the fuck
Who the fuck do you think you are! Fucking texting and calling me just who the fuck! Fuck you! Fuck you!! Im done I have no reason to talk to you so fuck you!
Him
It all changed in like two seconds he was just this strange kid that I didn’t know who meant nothing to me and as I leave this house he’s the kid I made out with bite grinded on and cuddle. I can’t tell you what it is about him but makes everything seem moderately ok right now. What is there to say? I won’t tell you that it was some fairy tale story or that everything was fireworks at first. He told me I was weird at first and we called eachother stranger haha. Then he came and played guitar for me and sang and my heart melted. He told me about how he’s lost all his family and how he has no one. Then he said he’s going to Alaska. That’s like 3 months he’s gonna be gone. Three months feels like a long ass time. Maybe it’ll go fast maybe it’ll feel like torture. I wish he didn’t have to go but it’s better for his life maybe everything will be the same when he gets back maybe things will fall back into place and all work the same. Who knows right now we can only hope.
The realization
The realization of the person you like is slipping away because you finally are realizing everything everyone is saying is true it just took your two best guy friends to prove it so. He is a good guy don’t get me wrong he cares very much and all that but what am I to say to the fact of him always cheating on girls. That thought of having that happen again sickens me. It tears my stomach apart thinking someone could hurt me like that. I under stand we all can make mistakes but repeatedly cheating isn’t a mistake it’s being a fucking asshole. He probably will never see all this so lets play the honest game. I fell for him. I fell hard and fast. What can I say I’m that kinda girl. I made him to be more than he was all cause he told me I was beautiful and made me smile. But really he’s as messed up and the other two. Let’s face it I will never be with him he will never love me.
Let’s talk about another realization. I still love my best friend. I have loved this boy for more than 4 years he is my world my heart and the thing that keeps me going. Don’t get me wrong I don’t wanna real him and his girl up I just wish I had him. He’s an amazing person that has a heart of gold and a soul to match. I want you all to know this boy has never hurt me he does nothing but take care of me. When I sit and tell you all this it’s for the sheer fact that I wish you all could have someone like this. He’s gone to the edge and back with me. He’s dealt with me wanting to die me being depressed he’s dealt with it all and how him and I have made it out alive ill never know. He takes such good care of me. Love you E.R
Another one to tell. The realization that you fall hard and fast cause of the simplest things. Ok so I met my friend masons basically cousin Jon. He’s so far from my type it’s funny. He’s a little music buff he plays guitar and has been through hell and back in his life. Two nights ago him and I stayed up all night together just sitting and talking. 4 am rolled around all the people were sleeping…but us. So we started flirting why I’ll never know but we did. I had been biting on his fingers all night being jokingly mean. So he bite mine. Little did he know that’s the thing that gets me. So we’re laying there and I’m pretty much on top of him and he’s biting away on my fingers not knowing how turned on I’m getting. But then kiddies he decided to bite my arm hard and I pretty much freaked out in happiness haha. So once I leave this home I’m leaving with a bruised wrist two swollen fingers and a good memory haha.
So to conclude with a wholesome point life makes you realize things. Some good some bad it’s life. Go with it. Don’t fight it. And smile.
Pce love happiness and all that come with it.
